empathy

so i hear tita jae is sick again
goodness... that's like the 10th time this year
that girl... i swear
i think we need to put her in an isolated island or something
anyway, get better sugar
sometimes i wonder what you're doing in your own time, picking up all this sickness

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some people seem to think i'm korean
sorry to bust your bubble peeps but i am pure filipino
well, maybe i'm mixed with something else but it doesn't matter
i was born there and it is my first home
i love my home, just not the people who run it
sometimes i think it would just be better off underwater 

i admit i am heartless and cold at times
but what i don't get is how people can't find it in their hearts to at least be good to people who are less fortunate than them... not only financially but physically
this morning i brought an old woman her food, warmed it up for her, got her pills out, woke her up and turned on her heater 

old woman: (almost in tears) bo, why are you so good to me?

this is the very same woman that i couldn't stand at first but has grown on me over the time
now that her health is deteriorating i feel bad for her

i couldn't give that lady an answer... my heart was torn in two and i was filled with shame...
shame for myself and my coworkers
i just left the room and never went back

i know that saying, "people don't care about you" will make me a hypocrite
and it didn't feel right so i just kept my mouth shut
what i wanted to say to her was "i'm sorry"

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner