TFTS Part 3

How do you deal with your enemies?

-I avoid them as much as possible. I'm no troublemaker. Not only is it a mess, but it's a burden I'd have to carry for the rest of my life. I mean who wants that? I understand that some people are so miserable with their lives that they have to spread it around them... and I don't want none of that. I just pray for me and for them. I don't want my anger to get the better of me. I don't want to say something that I will regret. I've learned my lesson.

Your view on marijuana?

-Honestly, I don't see any harm in it. I mean it has been used for medical purposes. It's all a conspiracy. They don't want to legalize it for the fear of pharmaceutical companies going bankrupt. Let's face it, marijuana can pretty much treat most symptoms and even cure diseases. Has anybody actually died from smoking it? I don't care what y'all think, I support it.

Do you see yourself having a family?

-I guess in some way I do. But I've stopped thinking about that stuff because I am trying to follow God's will. It's a mystery to me. I desire to be satisfied in God's love alone before I get myself into that kind of commitment.

The person you admire the most?

-There's a few. One of them is St. Francis de Assisi. He was a wealthy man, he had at it all. But he gave it up to help people. His heart was in the right place. A person like that makes me want to be better and believe in humanity.

What can you say about your close friends?

-They are good people. And frankly, sometimes I don't know how to behave around them because I never really had friends that stuck around for a while. I do feel like I don't fit in sometimes. I mean most of them are pretty much a family and I feel left out cos I'm not related or in some kind of a special relationship with any of them. I'm just a friend, and I know my place. I keep myself out when and where I am not needed. Some of them say I'm just like family to them now but... I don't know. I'm in my own world where nobody gets in, nobody gets out. I'm stubborn like that.

In other words, you're detached.

-I guess. It's hard you know? Depending on someone for happiness. It's what I call dumb happiness. Besides, it's no use attaching yourself to worldly things. In fact, that's a deadly sin. When you get your happiness from things or people, that means that you have other idols other than the Father Himself. I mean I am happy whenever I am with my family and I can rely on them for support and care. But in God alone do I find comfort and peace. I talk to Him as if He were my friend, I pray to Him, I spill out my problems and emotional struggles to Him and I am at ease whenever I realize He is with me, never leaving His hands and eyes on me.