Friendship

That hike in Piestewa had me sore for a week... had me limping and whatnot.
My legs are still a bit sore but I can walk now.
That's why I decided to go to the gym after work.
I noticed that working out in the gym is completely different from hiking outdoors.
It's nothing compared to it.
Sometimes I doubt if the gym alone is sufficient for me to lose some fat and gain muscles.
But if I go hiking every other day I would lose my legs.
Halp.

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My coworkers and I were talking about Christmas presents.
And somehow it led to me having a sugar daddy, and how to "accidentally" make him dead.
That's when I learned how to kill someone with the possibility of not getting caught.

The plant is called Oleander.
You take some leaves and leave them out to dry.
Crush the leaves into little pieces.
You can either put them in a capsule, or make tea out of it.
And of course you have to wear gloves when you do this.
Give it to your victim and let it work.
Haul ass. Prepare an alibi.
And the good thing about it is when they do an autopsy, they will find no traces of it.
How magical is that!

Not that I would try that on someone.
Ahem... moving on.


I miss the girls :(

Just me and Jee being dorks 

I don't believe in just one soulmate.
It's sad that such word is often misused by people.
I believe that you have many soulmates.
People that you have a spiritual connection with.
A bond that you can't quite explain... like what I have with these girls.
I can't explain it either.
I know that we don't see each other that much.
But when we do, something lights up inside of me.
Like being with them triggers something in me.
With Jeelyn, I get very imaginative, creative and carefree.
And Janine...
Well she... uhh
What the heck does she do to me.

Hmm... silence.
I'm silent around her.
It's not a bad thing per se. I just prefer to listen than talk.
And we're kinda like guardians, looking out for people we care about.

These girls are closest to being the best friends I never had.
Emotional intimacy with a friend was never my thing.
We'll see where this friendship goes.

I always dreamed about having 2-3 close friends who have the same interests as me.
Who aren't afraid to be spontaneous and do crazy/weird stuff.
Someone who I can talk to about personal things without being judged.
Friends who understand me without me having to explain myself to them.
Friends who I'm comfortable with, respect me and not cause any drama. 
Who are considerate and selfless. 
Friends who eventually become family.


I didn't expect I'd fall for one of them though.
Didn't see this one coming.
How to get myself out of it, I don't know.
I didn't even think it would happen.
Didn't think it through.
Sigh.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.