TFTS Part 2

how's your relationship with your cousins (father's side)?

-it's there, we just don't talk much... i mean besides the age gap, they have their own family now so there's barely any time to hang out

do you hate them?

-no... in fact, i'm quite fond of them... like i mentioned before, there's this wall between us that's stopping us from enjoying each other... that wall being my aunt (their mother)

what do you look for in a person?

-loyalty (very important), honesty, artistic, kindhearted, empathetic, optimistic, chill, laid back (controlling and possessiveness are a turn off), someone with a sense of humor and integrity, someone who's not afraid to be weird and crazy sometimes, someone i can travel and have adventures with, someone who understands me (meaning that there will be times when i need to be alone by myself... believe me i have my reasons but i'm sure they're nothing to be alarmed about), someone who trusts me completely (a little jealousy is ok, but if it becomes too much then consider the relationship over), someone who lets me have my freedom and accepts me 

where do you see yourself 10 years from now?

-in a strange place getting wonderfully lost

why do you like rainy days?

-i love the rain... i know to most people it's depressing but i wish they'd put themselves in my shoes and see how i see it... people need to see the beauty of it... the rain makes me feel really relaxed... like i can temporarily put my mind and soul at ease... it calms me... there are no words to describe the emotions it gives me... it just fills my soul with unexplained joy and content... i am in love with the rain itself... it brings out the best in me
how are you holding up?

-i'm hanging in there... moving on is hard especially with how things are right now... i know i said that if it's meant to be, it will find a way... but i have this gut feeling that it isn't, i can't explain it... i just don't see the point of me holding onto something that's never going to be... no matter how painful it is, i have to let go