Venting frustration and anger

Today's just not my day. It's a day like no other. When I woke up this morning, I tried to maintain a positive attitude. And I got to work and it was going good at first. Then out of freaking nowhere these residents start going off on me for no reason at all. First, 102: she was confused as heck. She said she just ate her supper. The fawk?? She got angry and was saying all kinds of things. I told her I'd get her food and left... whatever lady.

Then 205: she starts yelling that I should come exactly at 7am... and I was there at 7:03am... like what the shit woman?! Before I knew it, I found myself talking back to her. And something that I said must have shut her up. Gosh I don't even remember what. Sometimes I think I have temper or anger issues myself and don't even know it. And 211 calls just to have me rub her back. I said I can't stay long because other people still need my help then she gets mad and tells me to rub some more. I just went off like a sumabitch and left. 

203 and 202 wanted attention like always... those oldies just want to be babied... then the kitchen people started going off on each other and Ana gave me the silent treatment. I'm assuming cos I came 5 minutes late but hell I don't care. I don't have anything to lose if you never talk to me again. If you want to complain to the boss, go ahead. I've had enough of that damn place anyway. Right now I'm just feeling like 'I don't give a shit.' This ain't worth my health.

Then at lunch time 106 comes in 15 minutes late and blames me for not waking him up from his nap... Fuck dude, since did we start doing that for you!? I think that place will be the death of me. So much stress. 

But not as stressful as my old job as an m.a. That was worse than hell. But I'm glad to be out of there cos if I had stayed longer, I think I would have strangled that whore of Babylon... the biggest whore of whores.




Now I know what you're thinking. How can such a sweet little innocent girl have so much anger and hatred built inside? Well, I'll have you know this little girl is incapable of expressing her emotions and just holds everything in. And as much as I long to express myself, I just can't. I've tried, and I still am trying. It just frustrates me when people get impatient and automatically think they know everything about me. 



But all in all, Ana talked to me before the shift ended, 205 was nice and said hi to me, 203 and 202 didn't bother me, 211 didn't remember I was even in her room hahaha, 106 kindly asked me for his food and called me 'hon', and 102 softened up as I kept trying to joke with her. 


God saved the day. I thank Him for giving me a little bit of patience and strength to deal with difficult people today. 










And so now I am looking forward to my day off!!! I may watch a movie tonight... go mountain biking in the morning. My scars are pretty much healed up. Then use my cooking skills with Sam. I told Jae to just relax and let us do all the cooking since she'll be coming from work. As much as I'd love to try her chopsuey, I'd feel bad having to have her cook something. Ohh the things I do for love bwahaha