truth is....

last day of october
8 more weeks and it will be a start of a new year
how time flies

i've just been worn out all this week
can't wait for my 3 day weekend

i guess armarie's not coming to work tomorrow
i always look forward to fridays cos i get to see her and auntie fely
they're the ones who make that place bearable


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feeling real sad lately
it's just one of those days i guess
all these negative thoughts coming altogether
family problems, work, upcoming school, etc
what hurts the most is i can't rely on my dad's side of the fam
it's like we have this wall between us 
and the bricks just keep piling up and becoming more indestructible 

truth is
jim and i want to be a part of their lives
especially knowing jon is going to have a baby girl on the way
i missed out on ethan's and cameron's life
haven't even seen them once in person
with my aunt disowning us (probably cos we refuse to petition our father, which is her brother)
i don't think there's going to be any reconciliation any time soon

and truth is
perhaps, deep down inside... somewhere hidden and very deep inside this heart of mine
maybe... just maybe i still love and care about my father

you ever love someone so much, that no matter how much they've hurt you, all you can remember are the good things and good memories you have of them?
i've long realized that i may have twisted my own memories, either by adding to it or reading too much into things

i know he wasn't ready to be a father
he wasn't ready to let go of his freedom, wasn't ready to sacrifice
though it wasn't easy, i accepted it and made peace with that

no hard feelings
i forgive him because he taught me something
he taught me what not to look for in a man
and yes, my standards are very high

and it also taught me how not to be like him if i ever become a parent
i would never abandon my children, or let them feel alone
i would be open minded and be there for them,
supporting them every step of the way and sacrificing myself for their sake
and i would love them with every fiber of my being

i wish he wouldn't play with our emotions
telling us he regretted it
and that he wants to see us to make up for everything
well "father," if you want to see us, you're gonna have to put in more effort because i'm not helping you come here




was watching will & grace, and will brought up a very good point
build a big wall and keep the feelings out

and he's right
feelings are way overrated
i have no use for them

random yet interesting

interesting and random day today
got to bond with my favorite peeps

was planning to do errands by myself today but mama decided to come along
so i said okay, what could go wrong?
why did i think that?
the whole time she was in the car, she was lecturing me about all kinds of things
and i didn't even do anything wrong? at least i don't think so...
after years of practice, i have mastered my selective listening skill
don't try this at home kids because doing so will lead to your death
but yes, i have learned to listen to the important things vs. the useless crap
she said she wouldn't trust jim with our house because she doesn't want any of his girlfriends to come and visit/live in it
but it's okay for me to bring anybody as long as he's a good person 
"the heck, that is so unfair" she says hahah right
i think what she was trying to say is that she trusts my judgment
that and i'm very, i mean very picky
i'm not about to settle for someone who doesn't have their stuff together 

after an hour of being with me, she admitted to taking my old medication for the same health problem 
i had told her no prior to that, but she wouldn't listen to me
well i guess we're gonna have to learn our own lessons the hard way yea?
sigh, and she complains where we got our stubbornness from


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armarie called me around 1pm saying she needed to apply for jobs and wanted me to babysit vivi
so i went but i wanted to take vivi out, just me and her
armarie didn't trust me :( she dropped us off at walmart instead and they went off to wherever
i enjoyed it though... saw some cute outfits but the little lady already wears 12 - 18 mos clothing
and all the good ones were only 3-9 mos 

i got her a onesie and a cute outfit.... the onesie looks soooo cute on her!!!

when armarie and armando came to pick us up, i was still playing with vivi

me: (looking at vivi) pssst

(random lady looks at me)

me: umm, oh... no i was--

lady: oh i thought you were trying to get my attention

me: uhh, no

haha awks......


saw jeelyn and janine tonight
janine got a new haircut
she looks really different, but in a good way
i dig

had a good dinner with the peeps
wasn't too hungry though... i think it was because of the almond dark chocolate milk that i drank 
dressed up vivi in three different costumes for halloween (dog, minnie, and mickey mouse)
but i'm still going with the blue onesie! 

while driving home, some random guy that drove the car next to mine started a conversation with me

guy: hi there

me: hello

guy: how are you doing?

me: pretty good

(traffic light goes green)

he was still babbling on and on, i didn't even get half of what he was saying
just drove on without looking back 
hahah

horror harem

finally watched the shining starring jack nicholson on ifc
a task of mine that's long overdue
i kept seeing the reference on meme pics and family guy
never quite understood it
the main lady just keeps running like a blowup sex doll with a knife
the little boy was so cute!
excellent performance from jack as always
i remember watching family guy
stewie was riding his bike and running over the (ghost) twins and osama bin laden ahah

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the only thing i like about halloween is the horror shows and movies
lots of channels show classic horror movies
ahh~ it's like i have my own horror harem

history channel is showing the real story of halloween
i learned that christian beggars back then used to offer prayers for the souls in purgatory in exchange for cookies
they'd go around knocking on doors and asking for treats
and i guess that's where trick or treating came from
weird...

every year people ask me if i am going to dress up for halloween
as sad as this sounds, it's just not my thing... i don't get excited or giddy when it comes to it
so i tell them no, they ask why, my reason being i'm too old cos i can't very well say it's lame and stupid, and they say you're never too old blah blah blah
whatevs people

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i remember one time janine asked me why skeletons are associated with the desert
i told her that a long time ago, when they didn't have electricity and buildings, when cowboys still ruled the towns, there were people who traveled a long ways to get to their destination
and that included walking in the middle of the desert
sometimes they'd get lost and run out of food and water
and it would drive them to have hallucinations
their mental and physical health would just go downhill, leading to their deaths and not being properly buried so their remains became visible in the desert sand

she believed me LOL
i just made that story up right on the spot
but it makes sense doesn't it?
i used to watch a lot of cartoons as a kid so my imagination can get pretty wacky 

yous a dirty little lovah

busy floor + annoying/needy people + periods + cold + cramps = SCREW THIS DAY IN THE SH!THOLE

11 more weeks.... counting the days
Lord please make it happen v(>.<)v

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bruno mars new music vid "gorilla"... wow... 
i didn't know if my room was just hot or what
i was sweatin' like a bitch

the stripper was hot though
i like bruno's voice and some of his songs
he does have talent, i just don't find him attractive

funny how he went from singing about how a girl's simplicity shows her true beauty to this dirty, intense, very sexual song
not a bad transition though... i just hope he doesn't get way into it 
all songs nowadays are about hos, money and sex
we don't wanna add to that bruno ok? 
most women like sensitive men so stay that way

emmacrazy

harry potter and the deathly hallows pt. 1 is on abc family channel right now
reminds me of my childhood 
reminds me of my dream to become a great wizard, wishing all of it was real
i think i didn't like my reality back then
the thought of living in an awesome world of magic and sorcery seemed very appealing to me
casting spells, doing great tricks, and learning interesting things
i think i'm better off living in a fantasy world
one where i can be myself, be accepted and where sadness, hatred, violence, and all the negative stuff do not exist... but we all know that's impossible here on earth

anyway, i was crushing on daniel radcliffe as a kid
then i found out he was short in real life
but i thought emma watson was fugly back then 
but now....
WOW... just WOW

i would so totally go, like, full blown lesbian for her ahaha

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missing hawaii =(
i miss driving along the highway listening to reggae music with the beautiful beach in plain sight

no worries, no drama... just enjoying the company of true friends and family
i wouldn't mind living like that everyday for the rest of my life

people prefer to talk about their problems, but not me
i think that most of the time people pretend to listen to your problems but deep inside they don't care, or take joy in your suffering
and if you talk about your happiness, they get envy and curse you
it's why i mostly keep to myself... better off with people not knowing my business
can't trust anybody these days

sick and exhausted

cold, GO AWAY!

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i forgot how much i loved will & grace <3 
new episode of supernatural tonight!!
bruno mars' four sisters have their own reality show on wetv called the lylas
is there anything money can't do?
voices ain't bad though

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black people can be loud when they get excited
and yes i am racist
racist against everyone, even my own




[phone rings at work]

me: hi, how can i help you?

(black ladies yelling in the background)

nurse: hi-- what, is there a dog in there?

me: yeah, it's ayen

nurse: (laughs) you butthead





just so tired of it all
can't function when i'm sick
i just wanna get a one way ticket to greece and make a living there as an escort 

long blog about AAA (aliens, astronomy and astrology) haha

wellz...
that was a waste of my afternoon
there was nothing to do after i got home
tried to take a nap but wasn't sleepy :[
and i think my cold is getting worse

just watched ancient aliens on history channel
one thing they mentioned was that thousands and thousands of years ago (when we were still "monkeys" supposedly) the greys visited earth and saw how pathetic we were and started breeding with us, and that's how we came to be intelligent individuals
although i was uneasy about some of the things they talked about, the one thing that really shook my nerves was when they said we were created in THEIR image and quoted the bible

OH NO YOU DIDN'T!

i'm open minded but that's just taking it too far... how dare they >:-/
but hey, it's their opinion... they're just stating theories without evidence... they can't even prove how we evolved from monkeys... i mean has anyone actually seen such transformation? 
so.... just whatevs

AND

i thought the rumor that someone had einstein's brain was just a rumor... holy crap it was true!
after einstein died, someone had taken and dissected his brain
einstein himself didn't even know how he knew half the stuff he did
it was said that he would go into a trance
he would see all these equations and memorized them
and when he regained consciousness, he shared the knowledge to the world
some claimed he had a link to the otherworldly or extraterrestrial realm
while dissecting his brain, they found that einstein's parietal lobe was wider than an average human brain 
hmm... that would explain how he was able to communicate with whatever beings he was communicating (if he ever could)
interesting things you can learn just watching them strange shows


AND 
hahaha

apparently there was a 13th zodiac sign called ophiuchus, also known as the bearer of serpent
bad news right there
it lies between sagittarius and scorpio, right in the middle of the galaxy (and it looks like a huge zigzag line, which seems like a portal to an entirely different dimention) looks creepy
they say when the sun is in alignment with the constellation, all hell will break lose... and will probably be the start of the apocalypse or some kind of a disaster
the said alignment happens every 13,000 years... the last known event was 1,000 B.C.

i get really weird when i hear about this stuff... astronomy was one of my favorite subjects in grade school after all


and speaking of zodiacs, i was curious as to what mine said about me
.... and so the boredom begins
let's see if some of this is true about me...

AQUARIUS

"They fall into two principle types: one shy, sensitive, gentle and patient; the other exuberant, lively and exhibitionist, sometimes hiding the considerable depths of their character under a cloak of frivolity."

- yeaaa... definitely the first one.. and i am the type that tries and hides my serious side but sometimes it just comes out

"Both types need to retire from the world at times and to become temporary loners."

- couldn't be more true... sometimes one has to have time for him/herself

"They do not give themselves easily and are sometimes accounted cold. But once they decide that someone is worthy of their friendship or love, they can exert an almost hypnotic and irresistible mental attraction on them, and will themselves become tenacious friends or lovers, ready to sacrifice everything for their partners and be faithful to them for life."

- i would say most of this is true, but there's times that people just take me for granted and that's when i start to pull away

"However, they are sometimes disappointed emotionally because their own high personal ideals cause them to demand more of others than is reasonable. And if they are deceived their anger is terrible. If disillusioned, they do not forgive."

- lol in my defense, i would do almost everything for my loved ones, and i expect them to do the same for me... unfortunately that is not always the case... that's why it's best to have no expectations at all... and i do believe that once someone (of sound mind specifically) screws me over, there is a major possibility that i will give zero or no chance at all... though i will try and forgive... that's the way it should be... forgive but don't forget what it taught you

"They may excel in photography, radiography, electronics - anything connected with the electrical and radio industries - aviation and everything technical."

- i will go with photography :D and at some point in my life i did think about becoming a pilot, or be an air force pilot

"Simmering anger and resentment, rudeness or, worse, a tense, threatening silence which may suddenly burst out in eruptions of extreme temper, these are all part of the negative side of the Aquarian."

- this happens rarely... but it does happen ahaha

"One of the standout characteristics of those born under the Sun Sign of Aquarius is their unwillingness to follow the beaten track." 

- normality just isn't my thing

"Often a bit aloof and even standoffish, Aquarians nonetheless are usually well-liked. Prejudice and bias is offensive to the typical Aquarius. Aquarians are generally very clever, witty, and intellectual. They value progress and frankness. It's difficult to throw Aquarians for a loop—they're generally on top of things."

- hmmz... this one i haven't noticed about myself, but i do try to be on top of things... i know sometimes i can be such a procrastinator but i try to get as many things done as i possibly can

"They'll try to get you to see through superficiality, and encourage you to be open and forthright. "Be true to yourself" and "Don't follow the crowd" are mottos we easily associate with this sign."

- i say it to people but i don't force my ideas down their throats

"Aquarians need space and value personal freedom. Any attempt to box them in will likely fail. They'll happily return the favor; and they will treat people from all walks of life as equals. Equality and fairness are hallmarks of the sign. If you're quirky and "different", all the better."

- it's all about equality man.... EQUALITY and FAIRNESS... i can't stress that enough

"Moon in Aquarius people are extremely observant. They are life-time students of human nature, loving to analyze why people do what they do. This often stems from a detached—even shy—personality, especially in youth."

- so true! i really try to see the reasoning behind people's words and actions... there's just some that i can't figure out, and all of them have something very wrong in the brain... how am i supposed to see through that

"Whether due to character or conditioning, Moon in Aquarius people often grow up feeling "different". Although rather sociable, they are often loners at heart. Many have strong egos, or at least powerful defense mechanisms, and most Lunar Aquarians will do their best to be the most unique and unusual person they can be. Their inner feeling of loneliness—that they don't quite fit in—puts them on the outside, looking in."

- ohh, so that's why i feel like i don't have a sense of belonging because i don't.... hmm.. how sad

"when the Moon is in Aquarius, natives often will deny the more irrational qualities of emotions—such as jealousy, possessiveness, and fear—in an effort to be "above" what they consider "pettiness". When this goes too far, Lunar Aquarians can be emotionally blocked, distant, and detached."

- yes... i think all those emotions are petty, but it's human nature... and because i'm unique i pretend i don't have those hahaha

"Although Lunar Aquarians can be especially adept at understanding others' behavior and motivations, they can lose touch with their own—simply because they have identified too strongly with what they aspire to be (and these aspirations are often super-human)."

- yup sometimes i think i'm all that, then i realize i'm not then i'll feel like crap... a self-destructive habit, i know

"With people close to them, Moon in Aquarius natives can seemingly lack compassion, as they often fully expect others to be as independent and detached as they are! In close, personal relationships, however, Lunar Aquarians generally give others a lot of personal freedom, and they will tolerate and enjoy all kinds of idiosyncrasies in people around them."

- as i said, too much expectations is not recommended

"As long as they have their own space and the freedom to be themselves, however kooky that may be, they are trustworthy and loyal. Lunar Aquarians generally make wonderful friends. They'll make a point of leaving nobody on the outside. Many will fight for other's rights and crusade for equality."

- true again... i try to keep everyone on the same page but at times that can be impossible to achieve because some people don't want to get involved or think they know all that

"It can be difficult to know just how sensitive to criticism Lunar Aquarians are, simply because they hide it so well! When their character or behavior has been criticized, they tend to dig in their heels and keep right on doing it. They fully expect others to accept them exactly as they are, or they don't have much use for them in their lives."

- don't like what i am? sayonara mothafaka haha

"It's hard to shock an Aquarius rising. They've seen it all, or at least want you to think they have. In fact, they often enjoy shocking others. Not that they are flamboyant by nature, but they do like to, albeit quietly, get a rise out of others."

- that's right people... i pretend to be dumb, to see how dumb your dumbass thinks i really am... it's pretty dumb to watch LOL

"These sometimes maddeningly unpredictable people are nevertheless quite charming. They have an unmistakable stubborn streak, but when left to be themselves, they make unusual and endlessly interesting people to be around. Life just wouldn't be the same without Lunar Aquarians' unusual spin on the world and the people in it!"

- see that? CHARMING hahahaha

thankful of Thee

went to the fair again last night, but this time with the groupies... we were almost complete, except sam didn't come with due to back pain... she said she might have pulled a muscle while stretching yesterday morning... dude :-/

was nice though... jerald found his sweet potato fries after almost an hour of searching... jeelyn got to see her star trek exhibition... i gotta say, it was really cool... i didn't geek out as much as she did... though i secretly wished they sold some of those uniforms... i might have considered getting one hahah... vivi and janine on the other hand weren't enjoying it as much lol 

vivi: (puppy dog eyes) tita, get me out of here
bwahahaha

took vivi to see a show... there was a rapper on the stage and she was just moving east and west to see where all that noise was coming from... the rapper started cussing so i took her far from the stage but she just kept rocking back and forth to get a glimpse of that naughty boy... i think we have a future rapper on our hands!

got a 1/2 lb hot dog, it was good but i couldn't even finish it

we took vivi to watch the ice age exhibit and this guy just randomly poses in front of me

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im pretty proud of myself today
got out of bed at almost 7am today, had a mild breakfast and went to my dr.'s appt at 8am... seriously mistook me for a caribbean black person wtf? 

got my tdap, health form and xray done! though i had to drive pretty far to get those things done but it was totally worth it... i hope they'll accept my immunization rec's... my father sent us my records but i don't know if it's legit... it looks like he just scribbled some crapolla on it, smh

FREE valet parking though! hahahah that made my day
one of the guys was explaining to me how valets are like waiters and waitresses and they make money off of the tips they get but i wasn't paying attention
it was free.... FREE!!! hahah
then went to get my emissions test, PASSED!
man, am i on a roll or what!


thank you Jesus! my Savior and my strength <3

ending this blog with a little something

the walking sick

i feel better today

i was sleeping soundlessly last night when i woke up to my mother rubbing vics vaporub around my neck and chest, then she put a towel on top of it

(if you're filipino, you'll understand why our moms do this)

had trouble going back to sleep (-_-)

woke up around 7am and went to the bathroom

went back to sleep and didn't wake up until 11am 

LOL a much needed rest

i realized it was just me and my dad in the house... everyone else went out to do their own thing 

ate brunch at 11:30... had pan de sal (was very good too) with coffee, brown rice, leftover food from jeelyn's birthday that janine prepared for my mom and bro...

i cheated today... i put two creamers in my coffee, gasp! bad girl tsk tsk

took a shower after because i know my mother will not let me take me one knowing i have a cold

she thinks it will get worse if any kind of water even touches my body

she's old school like that

and i respect that... i respect her beliefs and values, even though at times they seem very ignorant and they conflict with mine... 

i brush those differences aside because she and my brother are the only family i have, and i can't risk anything to lose that

currently watching strip the city on science channel... it showed rome's, san francisco's and australia's cities and their architecture and foundation... it's so interesting how natural disasters force people to improvise and build a stronger base for their buildings, houses, bridges and even subway tunnels... i originally wanted to be an architect or engineer... i love to build unique and different things, i like to take on challenging tasks and solve them through my original and creative ideas

ayy Ginoo, kanus-a pa kaha

in sickness and in health, til death do us part

woke up this a.m. with a scratchy throat and some congestion... i was fine at first but then i started to feel chilly while at work and had a runny nose... a few coworkers told me i looked like crap or something rained down on me... as if i didn't know that already

came home, didn't feel too well so i laid down to take a nap for 4 hours... when i woke up, BAM! i'm sick ogiarthiadlfkngaw3 y809,xc FRACK! SHYEEEET

i hate getting sick... how am i supposed to go to the state fair now with my friends? waaaaahhh! no vivi D: 
huhuh i just wanna sit in a corner and cry a pacific ocean



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auntie fely told us that lanie's been working in some clinic in bohol, the epicenter of the 7.2 mag earthquake... and now she doesn't  have work cos the clinic was destroyed, but thankfully she's okay... here i thought she was working in ayala in cebu

i love how one plans for his/her life but ends up doing it somewhere or doing something totally different... we learn that there is a higher power that wants us to be better persons, either through difficult trials or use us as instruments to help and influence our fellow brothers and sisters...
i hope one day i'll be a better person who will be remembered by her sympathetic, compassionate and helpful nature, not by all the artificial things she possessed





but i still feel like crap!!! stupid cold go away! T_T

bbq night

went over to ate rose's house for some bbq again
was gonna stay outside to watch the full moon but it was getting too chilly
the food was better this time wahaha
had some grilled chicken, pork, fish and plantain bananas hmmm

i think some of it burnt

i just let the old ladies do their thang lol

friggin kids though running around screaming their heads off, ugh...
i wish some parents would discipline their offsprings  
kuya edgar gave me a prayer pamphlet... i don't know why he did it? just randomly handed it to me lol
he's so cute... asked him to help me out with my job hunting... please please kuya, put in some good words for moi!
by the end of the night i was sneezing like crazy... i hope i don't get sick like janine :( 

minivacay

woke up to janine's text at 5 in the morning... apparently jeelyn got smacked by one of her patients at work overnight... that got me worried i couldn't go back to sleep... i was praying for her to be okay and thankfully she is... for a while she had blurry vision and her nose was bleeding... thank God it's not broken but she's gonna be suffering from bruising... poor girl :( all this crappy stuff happening to her right before her birthday


we're gonna be going to sedona for 3 days and i am going to very well make sure she's gonna have a great time! poor baby :( can't wait to see her later, but first i have to get her her starbucks... and maybe some chocolates

puppylove

cathy tried to hook me up with daniel once... says he's a nice guy LOLwut... but i said no

and today ana asked me what my last name was and i told her, but then daniel repeated it and added his own last name to it, making ana think we're married... suchaweirdo

and from then on, he started calling me 'babe' and 'honey' and made some husband/wife comments... i told him i ain't no cougar... then he tells me i'm only a couple years older and it's not that big of a difference

 i would not date a guy who's younger than me... not even a few months younger... aww i hope i didn't break his little heart... daniel, if you were a few years older than me, then i would consider it (:

ana: are you guys married?

me: no

daniel: i'm not her type anyway

ana: cos he's white?

me: yes

LOL plenty of fish in the sea daniel... plenty of fish

state fair and rides!

state fair opened yesterday and rufus, eddy and i went last night after work... i've never met eddy before.. he seemed like a nice guy or girl, whatever

thought the entrance fee was gonna be a dollar but it was only until 5pm... we got there almost 6pm, fck... eddy paid for our tickets though... must have been desperate to go in since he'd never been in one before LOL

the only ride we rode was the ferris wheel... rufus couldn't fit in the other rides LOL... which was convenient for me cos i don't think i was ready to get in those extreme rides... i ain't scared, i just wasn't ready... lolwut

took this pic from the ferris wheel

 the ferris wheel

it was nice though... got to walk around and enjoy the fair... as we were leaving, eddy bought each of us lemonade... i was surprised he did that... we went to o'brien's after for dinner... the place was excellent... they serve authentic mexican food, it was like i was in mexico having tequila with a sombrero ahah... i ordered the salmon with mango salsa but also came with spanish rice and black beans... happy tummy indeed! eddy paid for the whole bill... i'm starting to like the guy 

it's funny cos rufus said eddy's never done that before... he didn't even pay him for gas when he rode along with him to the rez, so he was shocked that he paid for almost everything... i said it might have been my charm that touched his heart... i guess i have that effect on people aye? ;)









jeelyn found out i went to the fair without her... she screamed bloody murder and called me a traitor (-__-) huhuhu i called her today to try and make up with her but she pretended that she didn't know me... hah funny girl... she's a nerd but has a sense of humor... gosh if i were a guy, i would woo her LOOL

love/hate

it's always pleasant how our chickenshit of a nurse lets the total assist residents stay in assisted living... i feel like i'm not being heard, like my voice matters not... lot of us actually, there's just a few favorites who can get away with murder... God help them



helped amina put air in her tires after work... the darn thing took so long there were 3 cars waiting... the other one couldn't wait so he took off hahah
went to dreamy draw again to go biking and my mom came along saying she was going to hike, but she just ended up staying in the shades cos she didn't want to get a tan from the sun... i even went to the opposite direction to look for her (-__-) 
my thighs are soooo weak... i hope i don't get sore tomorrow... my left arm is still sore from the shot yesterday... so far no sign of sickness... i guess that's a good sign? 


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what i love about biking is that it gives me the adrenaline rush, especially when i'm going down a hill or a rocky trail... the wind blowing on my face feels good, it's relaxing... i feel like i'm flying... but i despise the moment that i lose control of the handlebar and fall off my bike...
it's a love/hate relationship thing one wouldn't understand

stress and rants

got uber pissed this morning cos the two whores didn't answer my call for help when i had an emergency with one of my residents... then arlicia turned the blame to me saying i take off before she can count to give me my narcs.... bitch what about coming in early? fracking fatass biatch

i didn't argue with her cos it wasn't worth it... i apologized to lauren though for going off on her... on that one yes i was wrong... i just told them to drop it and forget about it cos i was under a lot of stress... yes, that's the excuse that i used... and maybe i shouldn't have gotten mad at her like that
just another stressful day at the job





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i got as many stuff done as i could for next year... just need to do my xray, tdap and doctor's letter that says i'm healthy... bitch of course i am healthy but y'all need yo proof so i'll give you yo damn proof
i even did my flu shot today... first time ever... gosh if i get sick i will throw a friggin' fit
renewed my cpr/first aid.... i was gonna go to shirley's place but rufus recommended this one lady who can do it for cheap and for under an hour... i saved 25 bucks! and i didn't sit on my ass for 3 whole hours

i'm always grateful for unexpected blessings <3





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more rants about my coworker arlicia cos i have to get this off my chest


just cos you're good friends with the nurse does not make you the boss of the whole damn company.... stupid idiot be thinking she knows everything and is better than everyone... can't even spell or know them medical terminology... such a tattletale too... freaking hypocrite... this morning i was angry with her for not helping me out, but i got even angrier when i learned she reported armarie to the boss for being lazy... armarie is anything but lazy.... arlicia on the other hand is the laziest fuck i've ever seen... she sees the small mistakes and turn them into a big deal... AND the worst part is that the boss listens to the asshole... she and the nurse are tight so she believes anything they say... so if they say she has a penis growing out of her ear she'll believe it


a GOOD boss shouldn't listen to people's gossip... a GOOD boss investigates before she believes anything anyone says to her... a GOOD boss never has any favorites... a GOOD boss is someone who encourages the whole team, not put them down and turn them on each other... a GOOD boss is not absent minded


but what are we gonna do? no matter what we say they'll never listen... i guess for now, just lay low and pray for my enemies... getting back at them will lead me nowhere... 



i'll never lose faith