Batwoman Begins

I saw a very nice Superman shirt.
I wanted to buy it so bad.
But I'm a Batman girl.
I am loyal to my Dark Knight.

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Ran 1 mile on the treadmill at the gym in 14:34 minutes.
My original goal was at least 15 mins. Not bad ah?
Now I will try to run it in 14 mins! 
Baby steps, baby steps.

I'm hoping to be the next Batwoman! 
Hahah.
I wish.

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Apparently I have an accent when I speak Tagalog.
This older Filipina lady guessed where I was from.
She says she has many Bisaya friends.
And she knows a Bisaya when she sees one.
I didn't realize I had an accent.
Huh... you learn something new everyday I guess.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Humanity

I just want to say that one of the things I hate the most is when people try to set me up with some stranger.
Friends first, then we'll see where it goes. 
Because I don't believe in love at first sight.
No need to rush things.
And I am especially not ready right now.

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Finally saw Lanie tonight.
The care home is nice. Big house. Four bedrooms and 2 baths.

She wants to do a boudoir photo shoot next week.
Hmm... we'll see.
If I don't get too lazy setting it up cause believe me, it is a pain in the neck.

And it would be the first time seeing her wearing little pieces of clothing.
Ohh la la.
I hope her boyfriend won't mind it.
Psych.

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I guess the cat's out of the bag now.
It just further proves my point that people cannot possibly be trusted with anything whatsoever.
Oh well.
I don't care anymore.
Holding onto that little faith in humanity.
I'm torn between keeping it or letting it go.
I'm leaning more towards the latter. 
You deal with your shit, I'll deal with mine.
I am out.
Peace.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Friendship

That hike in Piestewa had me sore for a week... had me limping and whatnot.
My legs are still a bit sore but I can walk now.
That's why I decided to go to the gym after work.
I noticed that working out in the gym is completely different from hiking outdoors.
It's nothing compared to it.
Sometimes I doubt if the gym alone is sufficient for me to lose some fat and gain muscles.
But if I go hiking every other day I would lose my legs.
Halp.

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My coworkers and I were talking about Christmas presents.
And somehow it led to me having a sugar daddy, and how to "accidentally" make him dead.
That's when I learned how to kill someone with the possibility of not getting caught.

The plant is called Oleander.
You take some leaves and leave them out to dry.
Crush the leaves into little pieces.
You can either put them in a capsule, or make tea out of it.
And of course you have to wear gloves when you do this.
Give it to your victim and let it work.
Haul ass. Prepare an alibi.
And the good thing about it is when they do an autopsy, they will find no traces of it.
How magical is that!

Not that I would try that on someone.
Ahem... moving on.


I miss the girls :(

Just me and Jee being dorks 

I don't believe in just one soulmate.
It's sad that such word is often misused by people.
I believe that you have many soulmates.
People that you have a spiritual connection with.
A bond that you can't quite explain... like what I have with these girls.
I can't explain it either.
I know that we don't see each other that much.
But when we do, something lights up inside of me.
Like being with them triggers something in me.
With Jeelyn, I get very imaginative, creative and carefree.
And Janine...
Well she... uhh
What the heck does she do to me.

Hmm... silence.
I'm silent around her.
It's not a bad thing per se. I just prefer to listen than talk.
And we're kinda like guardians, looking out for people we care about.

These girls are closest to being the best friends I never had.
Emotional intimacy with a friend was never my thing.
We'll see where this friendship goes.

I always dreamed about having 2-3 close friends who have the same interests as me.
Who aren't afraid to be spontaneous and do crazy/weird stuff.
Someone who I can talk to about personal things without being judged.
Friends who understand me without me having to explain myself to them.
Friends who I'm comfortable with, respect me and not cause any drama. 
Who are considerate and selfless. 
Friends who eventually become family.


I didn't expect I'd fall for one of them though.
Didn't see this one coming.
How to get myself out of it, I don't know.
I didn't even think it would happen.
Didn't think it through.
Sigh.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Not my will but Yours

Goal check:
Where do I see myself  5 or 10 some years from now?

- Make new friends next year
- Being able to find the time to do a little bit of traveling between work and school schedule
- Find a job that allows me to travel and financially supports my hobby 
- Take my hobby seriously... maybe turn it into some kind of business
- Make a low budget film... this I have to do at least, before I kick the bucket
- Have my own little girl, or probably adopt... either way
- Hope to meet the right person... if not, it wouldn't make a difference
- Travel some more 
- Retire early
- Continue traveling until my last days

That's how I imagine my life will be like, or at least hope it to be. It mostly involves traveling.
What can I say. 
I'm adventurous at heart.

But it's not up to me. 
Sometimes plans change.
Things don't always go your way. Sometimes God has something else for you, something better.
I'm not getting my hopes up.
I just trust in the Lord and in His promises.
And I'll continue to help and love my fellow brothers and sisters.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Holding onto sanity

Some people aren't even worth it anymore.
Two weeks bitches! 
Well... 13 days now, then I won't have to deal with yo big lyin' asses no mo'

I won't let it get to me though.
If they're mean, rude or yell at me, I'll just let it be.
I'll keep my mouth shut and be nice.
Like they say, kill them with kindness.

Auntie Fely calls me and informs me about the latest news at work.
She knows everything and she only works on the weekends.
I'm there everyday, and I know nothing. How sad is that? Hahah.

Fely: Rosa asked me why you didn't become a team lead. She said you should be. Didn't they ask you to do it?

Me: Yeah they did.

Fely: Why didn't you accept?

Me: Cos I don't want to.

I honestly think it's a pain in the ass. 
I pretty much do everything that a team lead does anyway, except I don't get paid more.
All they really need is to have an official name for it so that they can have someone to point their finger to when all comes crashing down.
So I don't mind doing what I do. 

I'm kind of surprised about the few people who got picked to become team leads.
They must be desperate now to have someone to put the blame on.
Best wishes to those people. Have fun carrying that burden on your shoulders.

Meanwhile, I'm sticking to my own little world--

where I pretend I'm in Europe, standing on a high cliff overlooking the ocean with a cold breeze blowing.

And I randomly put myself in a small boat, in some tropical island, rowing in the calm and quiet ocean while I watch the sunset.

After enjoying that image, I then picture myself listening and dancing to reggae music in an open tiki themed club that's located right by the beach at night time.

Japan: walking down a road with beautiful cherry blossom trees in plain sight.

Hawaii: hiking in the jungle, knowing that when I reach the waterfalls, it will all be worth it.

London: enjoying the historic sights, learning about legends and unresolved mysteries, and kiss in the rain <3

Oh my gulay, I shouldn't get too carried away.

Otherwise my sanity will drift so far away and I will end up with nothing but a dull mind.

I do want to do those things though.

Maybe not now, but someday.

And when it happens, I will be the happiest girl alive.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Freedom come

Took Janine to her class yesterday morning.
She said she didn't hear her alarm and woke up at 6:20 a.m. And we had to leave at 7 a.m.
I'm kind of impressed that she managed to shower in 30 minutes haha.
She probably just dipped her fingers in water and started flicking them on her face and hair LOL jk
Lubb u

Only got 4 hours of sleep last night. Hurrr.
Went to see Last Vegas at the drive in with my significant others.

The movie was nice. 
Is it bad that I was the only one who didn't cry during the movie?
Jeelyn and Janine had tears in their eyes. It broke my heart :( 
Seeing them cry is worse than watching the sad parts of the movie.
Didn't like it one bit. 
If they were tears of joy, it'd be a whole different story.
Maybe they felt like they could relate to the characters?

Don't worry girls. You have me. I'll be here for you.
And I will do anything you want to do.
I'll go to clubs with you, pick up guys, and get drunk... anything.
If you want to go to the beach and watch the sunset, count me in.
I'll carry your oxygen tanks and push your wheelchair for you.
HAHAHA... I crack myself up.

Didn't get home until 11:30 p.m. last night
I was dozing off while driving. 
I'm very grateful for my guardian angel who always watches over me.
Whoever you are, whatever your name is, thank you <3
And to God who never fails to be there for me.
Sometimes when I'm driving, I don't remember how I get from one place to another.
Truly, You have my deepest gratitude.

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I received good news today <3
I am so happy. Thanking God nonstop big time.

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I left work early today to go to the tire shop with Jeelyn.
And because I needed a reason to get away from work :D

Jeelyn: I passed out last night, I was so tired.

Me: I didn't get enough sleep.

Jeelyn: Why are you so hyper? What time is it now?

Me: 1:30

Jeelyn: I slept for 12 hours. Until someone's call woke me up.

Me: Love you (pokes her cheek)


When we got to the shop, we told the guy that we're getting ready for a road trip to Napa Valley.
God please forgive me for lying.
The guy said the tires are in good condition. Just a little high.
Thank God. 
Somebody's a little paranoid huh?

Stopped by at QT to get some hot dogs. 
The lady and I were starving.

Didn't want to say goodbye :(
I wanted to hang out some more huhu.
I guess we can't have everything we want.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

hello december!

first day of december
holy madness... where does the time go??
two more months and i'll be... a year older 
huhuhu... crying a pacific ocean right now
keeeeeeedding
i'll probs start worrying about my age when i reach 45 and still single
i better make a pact with someone 
that if both of us are still single by the time we're 45
then we'll have no choice but to tie the knot
hahaha how sad
dunno if i'm wild enough to do that

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pretty much done with christmas shopping.... i think
can't i just give people hugs and kisses instead!? 
or maybe cuddle up by the fireplace and exchange stories?
gawd
i should have been a stripper

i don't know who else to give prezzies to
if i'm forgetting anybody else, oh well
better luck next time 


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i read an article online about this wealthy man in china
who sued his wife for giving him ugly babies
i find it hilarious and ridiculous 
turns out, his wife had cosmetic surgery before they met
i mean someone should look at how this woman looked before the op
the difference is unbelievable

what has this world come to?
people marrying people for their looks?
are they really that shallow?
whatever happened to loving someone for who they are?
or perhaps this thing called 'personality' does not apply anymore?

i feel sorry for them
because they really are missing out on one of the most wonderful feelings in the world
loving someone for who they are is like discovering one of the world's treasured riches
it makes you wonder
how come you've never seen a thing like that before?
then you slowly learn to appreciate them

before you know it, you get this warm and tingly feeling in your heart just by watching and listening to them
even just by being with them
it makes you wish that time would stop
so you could cherish that moment with them

but of course a broken heart is no fun
the big decision is whether to take that risk or not

[keep in mind that a life without risks is no life at all]

in the end there are people who cannot be convinced
you just have to show them

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner