in need of a loooong break

sephra and i heard a rumbling noise in the hallway

turns out it was just the maintenance guy

sephra: oh... i thought the whole building was coming down.. i would have ran and left all these old people behind

i didn't respond to her... i didn't know if she was serious or not

then there was a moment of silence

me: hell, i would have done the same thing

sephra: (busted out laughing) right!? i'll be like, y'all were supposed to go anyway

hahahah gotta appreciate people with a sense of humor

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got an invitation to attend a meeting for, as i call it, the "elite" people at work haha

i totally forgot the date, turned out it was yesterday

so bummed that i missed it..... NOT

as if i would go to that awful and boring gathering just so i could be introduced to the lazy big bosses who sit on their big asses and get paid thousands for it

i want nothing to do with that place... i'm just in it for the money ahah

called off today at work

just because i can ahaha

naye... my car was acting up yesterday

when i turned on the ignition, the whole engine went off

gonna go get it checked today... better safe than sorry

i would rather choose missing one day of work than getting stranded on the freeway pushing my car

besides, i could use a break from all the drama

corruption

just watched anderson cooper
he did bring up a good point
why did the philippine govt just now send out their military to search for survivors?
and the worse part is, they've only been in the airport and the major parts of the phil
but what about the places who were directly hit by the typhoon? the small villages? the other islands that were affected?
i don't get embarrassed anymore when people point out the flaws of the philippine govt
in fact, i want them to
i want them to expose how evil and corrupt they are
perhaps some can get away with murder but they will pay in the afterlife
and when the time comes when God will question their greed and selfishness, i just hope i'll be there to see when they're being cast down in the fires of hell

yolanda/haiyan

so armando and gabriel came to auntie fely's late birthday celebration and auntie helen mistook him for armarie's husband LOL

helen: is your husband chinese?

HAHAHAHA me and auntie fely were just cracking up  

goofy auntie helen

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such a nice day 

finally got a break from the dreaded floor in oasis

i got hit in the stomach though

i was behind isabel

and when she turned around, she swung her arm and bam! 

right in the gut

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the typhoon left the philippines in a devastating state

i feel sorry and grateful at the same time

grateful that i'm not over there

not that it would matter anyway

if i were there, i think i would just look on the brighter side of things

like how i love the rain, work and class getting cancelled and an opportunity to be closer to my family

i wouldn't worry about the rest because i know God will provide

i still pray for them

hoping things will get better 

and i hope the govt won't pocket all the donations from all the countries

i have faith in Him

He won't ignore the suffering and cries of my people

He won't leave them on their own

i know this is just a test

be strong mga kapatid! kaya natin to!

lone wolf

i'm not proud to say that i shamelessly pigged out today
i didn't eat much for breakfast... i thought i was doing good
then lunch came....

i had some fried chicken and beef tips
then auntie fely calls and says she's going to bring some filo food around 1pm (meaning 2pm)
had a late birthday celebration for her
when she came, i ate again.... 
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuudge i ate too much
not going to eat dinner tonight
good thing i stopped by the gym after
worked off some of those carbs

surprisingly there was only a handful of people at the gym
people must be lazy today

vivi is going to cali tomorrow
she's going to be there for 3 days :(
so sad....
hmm... i guess i'll just chill tomorrow
maybe watch some movies on netflix


loner ftw

stop says the popo

saw thor 2 with the dls sisters last night
i'm usually opposed to the idea of watching a trilogy without seeing the first part of it
but since thor isn't my favorite superhero i didn't care ahah

it was good
when they showed loki's death i had doubts in the back of my head
i don't think they would get rid of him that easy... they need a worthy opponent for thor
somehow i suspected he used one of his tricks
but as we got to the last 30 mins of the movie, my doubts were starting to fade cos loki wasn't shown again
until i saw a man approach the king and he wore that sneaky smile on his face
i knew something wasn't right
i'm actually kinda glad he didn't die but it should be the other way around lol

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my mama never fails to ruin things for me
here i was driving, minding my own business
we stopped at a red light and a policeman was right beside us

mama: that handsome man is smiling at us bo

me: where?

mama: over there (points at the policeman)

me: (almost pissed my pants, quickly looks away)

mama: hahahaha

me: (trying to hold in my laugh) ma stop it we're gonna get caught for something 

mama: look at that, he's so handsome

me: (shaking my head)


aahhh quality time with my mother superior

numb

i feel like such an asshole (and a big one at that) when some residents say they're fond of me yet the feeling isn't mutual
the truth of the matter is that i don't care what happens to them
i mean i guess i do a little bit, i treat them as how i would want people to treat me 
if i'm assigned to a certain floor, i know i'm responsible for everyone in it so i do my best not to have anyone die on my shift ahah
to me, i just go to work, do my job and go home
there's only a couple that i truly care for

i thought i was close to this one resident
but when i learned that she passed away, i felt grief
just for a very short period of time though

i have ways of comforting myself
all of us have to go eventually
it just depends on how we live our lives that determines where we go in the afterlife
to me it's a win-win situation

if i go to heaven then i'll be able to see my loved ones again
but if some of them aren't there, God will erase my memory of them
it is heaven after all right? i would imagine that sadness, grief, and all that negativity don't exist up there

but if it's the other way around, my loved ones won't be able to remember me
i think i could bear it, but i would suffer
oh well, i'll cross that bridge when i get to it

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going to see thor 2 tonight 
hope i don't doze off hahah
didn't see the first one though
if it gets too confusing i'll just sleep away~

purpose

had a vision this morning while driving to work
once i'm done with everything, i so wanna get out of here
go to different places, explore them and have new experiences
it probably won't happen until four years from now
feeling kind of excited! maybe i'll be like a nomad 
only take what i need, and God will take care of the rest
just the thought of it motivates me
motivates me to work harder and just keep on going everyday
it's my new goal

at least i found my purpose in life
i don't know what God has in store for me
i'm still alive so He must have something ahah
i guess i won't know til later on in life

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happy 8th month vivi!
you're getting so big and hyper
i don't know if we'll be able to keep up with you :(
oh lawd have mercy

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i find it hilarious when men get jealous when they find out their wives or girlfriends are hanging around me
there's probably smoke coming out of their ears when they mention my name
it probably has to do with my name
bo is not just for males ok, it's a unisex name 
no need to get all worked up

in my group of my friends, i think jerald is the only one who trusts me
the rest thought i was the enemy
like armando, i heard from his ex-wife that he told her she and i should lessen the amount of time that we spent together
seriously, if you really love someone, you wouldn't tell them to stop hanging out with their friends just cos you're jealous..... just sayin
i wouldn't do that to someone that i love... that's just petty

also, when that time my friends and i went bowling (that was the time when mojica and jay were still a couple)
i guess jay said something to mojica and she stormed off crying
so i went after her and we sat outside the building
i asked if she wanted to talk about it, trying to comfort her
then she told me about their problems and how he got jealous over me
come on now
i'm your friend too jay and it hurt me that you didn't trust me

he probably thought i was going to steal her away from him
as if that would happen... she ain't even my type
i'm not the kind to break up a happy union
it's just not my style, that's not me
even if i did have some feelings for one of them, i wouldn't dare try anything
i would just stay far away from them cos i wouldn't be able to live with myself otherwise
i'd rather keep it to myself than inflict (emotional) pain on a friend
if it's meant to be, it will find a way

that's why i became so uneasy when i called some of these people my friends
they're more like acquaintances
but it's ok
although our bond or connection won't be the same