Overwhelming

It's almost February woohoo!

Birthday coming up~

Though I don't think it will be much of a birthday

I'll be in school doing boring stuff mostly

Seems like I can't get away from this thing called stress

Well at least I'll be going out of town for a couple days

I guess that will be fun... I think

Considering I'll be bringing my laptop and do my usual reading

-Sigh-

Let's see.... 4 more months

:(

 

 

Since my memory is not very reliable, I try to write down everything that's important (and not so important) on my board.

So proud of myself



 

 

 

Zomg I just realized I'll be starting my clinical in two weeks

Scared much...

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Pressure

I have no idea how these professors expect us to cram the materials on all these chapters. 
There's more than 25 chapters approximately.
One chapter alone has almost 40 pages.
And the letters are very tiny mind you.
Plus all the skills we learned in lab.
And drug calculations/conversions/different systems.
Health assessment and physical examination, intro to pharmacology, nursing history, med errors, and the rules and regs.
I'm pretty sure there's more but that's all I can think of right now.
How how how how how how!?
Shitting so bad.

And we were told there was only going to be 30-35 questions overall.
How am I supposed to know which ones are going to show on the test!!!
Dios mio!

Pressure is starting to build up........

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Tidal Wave

Another nightmare last night.
I just don't get it.
Why do I often dream about tidal waves??
Someone please explain!!

Somehow we knew that it was coming.
And again, my sympathetic self decided to go house to house to warn everyone about the wave.
But it was too late.
It was already coming.
I was walking on top of the huge dam to warn people (I don't know why but some people had their houses near the top of the dam) when the first wave hit and went over.
More waves started coming and there was nothing else I could do except look down on those people who were barely getting away. I remember being scared shitless.
The waves became bigger and bigger.

Then my alarm clock goes off.
I was so relieved. It seemed so real. It was one of those lucid dreams.
I got up quickly, stumbling through nothing, my eyes refusing to open.
I was still affected by the dream... I could hardly get my shit together.

This is like my 4th tsunami dream.
It must mean something.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

MJ Watson

Blaaargh... yawning like crazy.
Being a call girl at night is definitely going to mess me up permanently.

Is it just me, or is marijuana being considered more taboo than cocaine and meth?
The government has certainly brainwashed people into thinking marijuana can kill you in an instant.
Do your research people.  
Some of those studies aren't exactly convincing. They're just weak.
Like chill dudes, it's only a plant... and aren't plants good for you?
Why do you think vegans are the happiest people on earth.
Yeah it has some bad stuff in it too, but compared to meth and cocaine? Those two can mess up one's mental and physical health bad. Marijuana is nothing.
I don't know, I've always thought it was weird how people get paranoid when the word marijuana is mentioned. 

And yes I am an advocate for MJ. 
Do I smoke it? 
Unfortunately I don't. 
Right now, my career is more important than my pleasures.
Can't wait to move to Colorado... HAHAHAHA keed.






School is totally kicking my ass.
Already getting lazy to read these chapters now HUHUH.
Ahh, endurance Bo. We can do this.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Hello and Welcome 2014

Started my year by going to church with mama.
Leaving all my troubles and problems behind.
I hope I will not be blinded by unnecessary and useless emotions and all the 'what ifs'.
Worry is not gonna get me anywhere.
I'm sorry God that sometimes I have so little faith in You. 
I will make this year all about You. 
Though I don't want to make promises because I know that I often fail You.
But I will try very hard.

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Can't believe I'm saying this but I'm starting to get lazy doing these blog entries.
I may take a break from it soon.
Considering I don't have much anything significant happening in my daily living haha.
I should only write about my thoughts.
Writing about my day isn't entertaining... for me at least.

But it's not everyday that I feel like drowning in my own thoughts.
At times I like it, other times I don't.
Having more thoughts leads to overthinking... and that's what I don't like.
It makes my problems worse than they already are, and creates problems that aren't even there in the first place.

Anyways.

Welcome 2014! 
I hope you'll be good to me.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner.